I find myself calculating pretty much everything in terms of Baby L. I look at the 10-day weather forecast and think "at the end of this 10 days, I'll have about 5 weeks to go." I can now count on 2 hands the number of times I'll probably have to really clean my house again before the baby comes. It really gives sweeping and mopping an extra je ne sais quois when you realize it is a fleeting luxury to be able to do it without thinking about anything else. I am working 6 more weekends. I'll probably make about 10 more trips to the grocery store. I might cut my fingernails one or two more times before I am completely responsible for another human being's very life. Literally everything I do, I think of in this framework. It's become a nasty little habit. But kind of fun too. I don't think of it in a foreboding sense (at least, not usually).
The truth is that things are about to get really fun, and at the same time, the activities of daily life will be a lot harder to accomplish. It is hard for me to think of both of these realities at one time.
9.14.2008
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It gets exhausting counting like that- I remember waking up one day a few months after Ad's birth and realizing that I had stopped counting time in weeks. After the baby is here though, for a month or two or so, you may find yourself counting backwards. I did a lot of this- "only 7 weeks ago, I was pregnant and eating twinkies and knitting baby blankets (okay, minus the knitting and plus the twinkies).
I don't know if that really ever stops though, Laura. From here on out, time is measured by your children. Its very bittersweet.
It gets exhausting counting like that- I remember waking up one day a few months after Ad's birth and realizing that I had stopped counting time in weeks. After the baby is here though, for a month or two or so, you may find yourself counting backwards. I did a lot of this- "only 7 weeks ago, I was pregnant and eating twinkies and knitting baby blankets (okay, minus the knitting and plus the twinkies).
I don't know if that really ever stops though, Laura. From here on out, time is measured by your children. Its very bittersweet.
It gets exhausting counting like that- I remember waking up one day a few months after Ad's birth and realizing that I had stopped counting time in weeks. After the baby is here though, for a month or two or so, you may find yourself counting backwards. I did a lot of this- "only 7 weeks ago, I was pregnant and eating twinkies and knitting baby blankets (okay, minus the knitting and plus the twinkies).
I don't know if that really ever stops though, Laura. From here on out, time is measured by your children. Its very bittersweet.
oops. i guess i really meant it.
Keep those hypnotic thoughts available for childbirth, you will need something to distract you.
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